-Primary notice: the issue proved to be rather difficult to formulate, putting it words- -even more. Thus this entry will be little more than poorly knitted babble for quite some time-

-Secondary notice: in fact, the inevitable text below is as good as any rant-



AND HERE IT COMES:
Following the closure of XX century retrospective thoughts strike through my day frequently at an ever-increasing pace and strength and all of them could be simplified to the "what would happen if. . ." node according to those unfortunate souls whom I kept pestering with my nonsense.

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Quite often I get the impression that contemporary human still lives as if his true nature was one of an everlasting being fully connected to a collection of all other humans that he cares about whose demise means only a strictly numerical change within one multi-person body. . .rather than one of a yet another being whose demise is individual and irreversible. Many of those who would have died under only very slightly different circumstances (an event implying the in-existence of others who indeed have found themselves in that one fatal combination of events) treat their further lives as if they were fully predestinated to them since the first hours of the universe.
____And probabilistic approach is meaningless since obviously one cannot be 1 in 10/100/1000/ dead as opposed to being completely dead.

I am mostly assured that most of city-bound human populace has experienced or heard about avoiding sure demise by only an opportunity or circumstances they couldn't have arranged themselves. How one is supposed to reflect on such events in a fully self-conscious coherent manner?



While my own set of barely avoided tragedies doesn't seem threatening at a first glance, they still include potentially morbid instances such as spending a moment of an evening on running away (twice) from a small local commitee whose idea of a pastime involved beating up random passerbys. Since I cannot probe the full possible extent of an eventuality when such encounter could not have been avoided, I safely assume that it might have been potentially lethal.
____And a day is less bearable when a need arises to foster such uneasy truth.
Still, it is merely a prelude to a notion even less bearable: The very path, choices and identity of nearly every person all depend on other people- -many of whom made it alive due to unique circumstances surrounding otherwise tragic events, some of which inflicted by other people- -close and distant alike.  






-This notice indicates that all the above is a hasty sketch that will be reworked soon. -